Post by iason on Mar 21, 2016 12:13:21 GMT -6
After everything that he had been through, it seemed that it had come to nothing. Even though he knew that it was not necessarily true, Iason felt that his life had lost its meaning. He had Pacali to dedicate himself to, but was it all worth it in the end? He would be helping others and that was what he loved, and he knew that, rationally, he had something to do, but it just felt so pointless, so empty... What was the point? Why should he have lived? Why did Amethyst have to die?
He was beyond the point of being angry at nothing. There was simply hopelessness and despondency weighing him down, woefulness clouding his rosy eyes. Good reasoning told him that he had a reason to live, a reason to go on, but there was simply that feeling of worthlessness gnawing away at him. Iason sighed as he fiddled with various herbs by the trickle of water, picking more of the greenery out of the dusty dirt. Pale paws toyed with green-white flowers, the calming sweet scent tickling fuchsia nares.
Angelica. His mother had told her son of its calming properties and of its numbing sedative abilities. He also knew of its addictive potential, but at that point, Iason was desperate to try anything. A pale pink maw opened an inch before tearing off a small part of the angelica plant and chewing it slowly, releasing saccharine juices into his mouth. Some of the liquid slipped down his throat, numbing it, soothing his anguished mind. He would not mind being addicted to such a peace-inducing herb.
Wanting more but cautious still, ivory canines tore off a larger piece before throwing the angelica to the water and then repeating the process for this new mouthful. At the end of it, it felt like there had been a hefty weight pulled off of the Maned albino. He knew that he could not keep coming back to the plant, but the reckless part of him decided that he might as well. He could not keep living so empty, so broken, and if the plant provided him relief from that, what was to say that he could not use it?
Notes: Ia gives me the feels ;-;