Breaking the Rules [Siren]

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A heavy sigh left the male's jaws as she looked at him and spoke. She did not understand him, and a large part of him figured that she never would. She truly did make his life hell, and perhaps an even more selfish male than him would have cut her loose and told her that he wanted nothing to do with her ever again. But that was not Kalique. The worst part about the hell she put him in was that he actually wanted to be involved in it. It would be so much easier to turn his back on her and leave her forever, but he knew that it would hurt more than anything he wanted to admit. He swallowed and sighed softly once more, offering her a small nod in agreement to her statement. "That is correct, it is not the only way." He said, lifting his silver eyes to look at her with a serious expression. "Though I do not believe you would rather me going around killing right and left. I do not think you understand how deeply the rage holds control over my sometimes." He said, frowning at her and leaning back slightly.

She did not know, and he honestly did not want her to ever find out. He was certain that if she saw that side of him she would not want anything to do with him. He had given her a glimpse of it when they had first captured her, but even then his reasons had been selfish because she had wanted her accessible to him. Things had gotten more serious now, though, and he really was not sure how to move forward. "I am not saying that I will take anyone else. But you cannot expect me to see the future. I do my best to control myself, and I think I have done a pretty good job of that, especially given that you are not the only Ganika of Khalsa." He said, frowning at her and narrowing his eyes in frustration. He had not once been interested in using Isolde for her given purpose, and he had actually ignored her existence up until the moment he mentioned her. "I only want you and Tayas. I do not understand how you cannot see that. Do you want my protection or not? That includes protection against myself, as well." He said, biting back the frustrated growl in the back of his throat.

He was not telling her that he would be disloyal. Whether her definition of that was different than his or not did not matter. He would love her, protect her, and care for her. But he would do everything in his power to not let himself hurt her. If she could not accept the fact that it would mean occasionally putting his damaging rage elsewhere, he did not know how he could make her understand. But he knew that he could never truly make her do anything. Yes, she was a Ganika so he physically could make her do whatever he wanted, but that power was different than true control over her. And if he were being honest, her strong and stubborn side was probably a big part of why he was so drawn to her. She was not destined to be a Ganika, but he could not offer her anything better himself. So perhaps if she wanted to make him feel powerless and unimportant, she was doing a wonderful job. But, of course, she claimed that she loved him as well.

(Siren)

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