[Ethiopian] Zayden

OOC

Name: Zayn or ZayZay

Years RPing: Sixteen years (but I'm a bit rusty as it has been a couple years since I've been active so it might taken me some time to get back up to my usual level/skill ^^; )

Slot Used: Free

How You Found Us: I've roleplayed on here before quite a few years ago so I just know this site. It's my preferred roleplay :3

General

Name: Zayden

Birthday: January 9, 2016

Gender: Male

Species: Ethiopian Wolf

Physical

Height: 22"

Weight: 35 lbs

Coat Color: Red & Gold

Eye Color: Grey

Health Issues: N/A

Other Information: Paranoid Schizophrenia, Major Depressive Disorder, Bi-Polar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Homosexual

Mental

Mental Stability: Unstable

History: Once upon a time, a mated pair met and fell in love. The male was quite a bit older than the female, him being five--an aged warrior, her being two--barely an adult. The union was highly frowned upon and so the two set off on their own. They found their own small territory, made their den, and had a litter of six pups. Zayden was born as the fifth pup. The family found amazing happiness and joy, but the femme was sadly taken under after delivery from weakness and became ill. 

Personality: Depression is much more than a simple malady for this poor fellow. It affects him on an almost chemical level, to the point it's changed his entire personality from when he was a pup. Sweet: Zayden is such a sweet boy, and very thoughtful. He overanalyzes every situation most of the time but he's always thinking of how his actions could potentially affect someone else, and whenever he messes up and hurts someone else--especially someone he cares deeply for--he beats himself up for it forever, constantly remembering how he hurt them, and it shakes him to his very core. Because of this, he is often taken advantage of or simply misunderstood. Because he's so worried all the time about upsetting anyone and everyone around him, he never knows what to do and often makes many mistakes. He doesn't think things through logically, but rather emotionally, and usually it leads to bad decisions that he can't undo. Making most others misjudge him for being insensitive or just an awful individual. Which only brings him further down in himself. He also lacks any amount of confidence, due to a lot of the misjudgements that have happened to him, it has caused him to lose a lot of important individuals in his life over and over which has taken an ax to his self-confidence and his self-image.

Besides being mentally rocky inside himself, however, Zayden abounds with personality. When he's on a manic high, or just distracted from everything negative around him, or just really connecting with someone and having a good time, he can become super upbeat and bubbly. He has an odd sense of humor, but can also be super sweet and loveable when he's happy. And despite his struggles with self-identity and self-confidence, he has a much deeper level about him. He's kind, considerate, thoughtful, selfless, empathetic, caring, and has just a huge amount of love in his heart to give. He really just wants someone to be in his life and to stay in his life, no matter what happens, until the day he dies.

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